Snowflakes
Renesmee-Breaking Dawn Spoilers

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Snow.

Looking down, I didn’t really notice it falling. I didn’t even feel it, a sense courtesy of Daddy. So when I looked up, why did it surprise me when stars of frozen ice fell into my brown eyes? I’ll tell Momma that’s why my eyes are teary.

I counted to ten and looked back down. The nightmare still wasn’t gone. And it wouldn’t be gone for a while, probably for the rest of my life. That made me sad, and I don’t like being sad. Despite my usual body temperature, I felt very cold.

I crouched down, balancing perfectly on the balls of my feet. As much as I didn’t want to, I looked more carefully at my nightmare. It was only three small blotches on the grass. Just three spurts of that human’s blood got out before I became myself again, barely enough to make a mark.

But, it wasn’t the spill I was worried about.

I looked back across the river now, the large white house just out of view. No doubt Momma or my Big Brother Jacob will come to get me soon. I just hoped it was the latter. He would be so disappointed at the blood spots, or more like the origin of the blood, but would cover for me… I pray.

“Renesmee!”

The voice was unmistakable. Oh, I moaned to myself. I hadn’t thought to wish against him as well. I didn’t move from my crouched position. I didn’t even blink at the blood spots as I heard Daddy follow my scent to find me.

I could hear him jump easily over the river and come towards the small clearing I was in. He stopped cold before he came close to me. Of course, my vampire father could smell the blood right away. I didn’t say a word. He might not have noticed, since I hardly speak aloud, but not moving didn’t help.

I waited for something. Anything, so long as it wasn’t the hard silence that followed. The tears were falling freely as he slowly walked over to me. I’m sure he saw the blood spots to, but he seemed to ignore them. Silently, he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me up to his shoulder.

“What happened?” I could imagine the stone set of his face as he glared at the blood on the ground.

^{“… you’ll be mad at me…”} Daddy was the one person who never really needed to hear me speak, but I had to say it out loud. How else would I believe it unless I heard it in words? He would be the one person most devastated by my actions.

But he surprised me today, just as much as I surprised him.

“I’m not mad at you Renesmee. I could never be mad at you.”

I gave him the most incredulous look I could muster. But rather than glare at me for the look, he smiled a strange crooked smile. “I know that look.” My look became one of confusion. “Bella always gives me that look when I say something she thinks is insane.”

Watching Daddy talk like that made me look at him not as “Daddy” but as “Edward,” the person Momma, better known as “Bella” always sees him as. The difference between the two Edwards always astonished me. Momma liked the word ‘dazzle’ better.

Neither of them would be dazzled by what I had done.

With that one thought, the rest of them came back, just a flood of nightmarish memories that I’d like to quickly forget. But Daddy saw them before I could erase them from my mind.

He looked at me for one sixth of a second with a horrified look on his face, and then it melted away as soon as it formed. Like the snow around us washing away the blood on the ground, he didn’t dwell on the actions I had done. Daddy hugged me close as he whispered, “No one expected you to control it perfectly.”

I instantly thought of Bella, whose record was perfect in every way, and had been for a full year after becoming a vampire. She never even went through the ‘newborn’ stage.

Edward coughed a dry laugh. “But she was a human before that. We never thought you’d understand that world completely. So we never thought you’d always control your thirst. And we would never be mad at you for it.”

He carried me inside from the snow, and stopped feeling so cold.